39; going out with a bang!!
This is my 39th year and I know it's going to be good. As I started to approach the next decade of my life I began feeling a sense of panic. I felt pretty similar when I came to the end of my twenties but for different reasons. I thought that my partying and fun times would end and I would become a frumpy, boring person as soon as I hit 30. I couldn't have been more wrong. My thirties have been filled with laughter, successes and I have made many more amazing and close friends along the way. I may not go out as often as I did when I was in my twenties but I don't want to either. Motherhood brought a sense of calm and when I do go out I really appreciate it. Now I live through the last days of my thirties I feel the most confident I ever have. I know the person that I want to be and how to achieve it. I have become more reflective and am comfortable with my sense of style, abilities and interests. The friends that I have are close ones who I absolutely cherish. In my younger days I would feel that I needed to fit in to be liked, whereas now I put the value on being warm, kind, interesting and most importantly interested in other people.
I am really looking forward to this year and strive to build my creative business as the small steps that I made last year made me so happy. I hope to meet more new people through craft fairs and courses and increase my social media following. I impressed myself last year with how I juggled working full time as a teacher, being a mother, starting up my allotment as well as working on Rebecca Lawrence Handmade. I have sold more work then ever, including lots of personalised sashes and portraits and at the end of the year doing my most successful craft fair at MAC in Birmingham. If something makes you happy you don't mind how busy it makes you. My husband commented on how much happier I was in myself, the energy that I had and the improvement in my general well being. Being tired from working on your passion is a good way to be tired.
I hope you all have exciting plans for this year. I would love to hear about your goals and how any of you are coping with the thought of turning 40 soon.